I wasn't supposed to go back to my Doc so soon. It has only been eight weeks of "do-it-yourself" action post-surgery. But about a week ago I noticed my regular pre-period cramping setting in, teamed with four weeks of negative OPK tests and a temperature chart that looked like I'd had a fit when plotting. I got nervous. As far as I knew I was still not producing eggs monthly, and I wanted answers. So went back yesterday.
We were told that my temperatures looked similar to a triphasic curve cycle and that we were technically still on the dreaded TWW, because I may indeed have ovulated. He told us not to worry, because my blood tests would be able to speed up our waiting, and by Monday we'd know for sure if I'd ovulated. If I had, it was HcG testing time! If I hadn't, it was time to start my beloved Clomid again (Yay?). He didn't want to put us through IUI until I was DEFINITELY making eggs. But, that Hubby and I could request it at any time if we wanted to fast forward the process. And, once again, we were reassured, that we would be pregnant soon, but not to worry because...YOU'RE BOTH SO YOUNG!!
I left his office a little peeved with my ovaries' lack of apparent success. Why couldn't they just do what I wanted them to do? My brain was sending them the order to make more eggs, but they just weren't listening, I guess. ANYWAY, so I go into the pathology clinic to get my bloods taken and the nurse takes one look at my request form and asks if I'm trying to get pregnant. "Yep" I say, not super keen to talk about it again. "YOU'RE SO YOUNG" she says, "you can't have been trying for long." I tell her it's been over a year. "Never mind, you've got plenty of time" she replies. "Oh, thanks." is all I manage to say over the top of my inner bitch. I take my bandaide, smile politely, and I leave.
I know you're trying to be supportive. I know you're also trying to compliment us. But please, don't point out the obvious. I'm young. I'm probably younger than most women when they first walk the infertile path to parenthood. But apparently age has NOTHING at all to do with it. My PCOS won't go away because I'm young. In fact, it's something I developed as a young person. My desire to have a baby isn't any less because I'm young, either.
All I know is, I am the age that I am, and I want to have a baby. I've wanted to have a baby for a long time. That want only gets stronger the longer we fight to make it a reality. My age will not stay the same, and someday when we want to have more babies (God willing), people won't be saying how young we are then, will they? We will attempt this journey again and again, until our family is complete. And THAT is the reason we have started already, because we do have age on our side, for now...
